Living in a Dream World

The last two months I have been living in a dream world. At least that's the way it feels. For my entire life, I have longed to find that person that would make me complete. Tonight, I believe I may have found him.

Many times I am very cautious about telling people that I'm dating, because truthfully, dating never goes that well for me. I'm a runner. I tend to run as soon as things start getting a little serious. I'm reminded of the Julia Roberts/Richard Gere movie, "Runaway Bride". Except I never get anywhere near a wedding. I thought this was strange, until tonight, when I was at a singles group with friends, and one of the women said that very same thing. That's she's that way. I told her about me, and she immediately wanted to know how I fixed it. Well, I haven't completely fixed it, but I do know I'm not running this time. My friend, Matt, put it the best way-- it's a fear of being vulnerable that causes some people to run, and thus seals their fate as a single person. Like I said, the running is finally over for me.


Allow me to introduce you to Jeff. Jeff and I were high school sweethearts. We broke up when I was like 20-- and totally lost contact with each other. But now he's back in my life, and I see a bright future...one that I never imagined could happen. I have been careful not to tell people about our relationship-- I was even scared to title it. But yesterday, I decided it would be okay to put a title on it. SO, yes, Jeff is my boyfriend, and he couldn't be happier. I couldn't be happier. And yes, that scares the living daylights out of me. But there comes a time where you have to stop being afraid and trust God that he's leading you in the right direction. I do trust God. I also trust Jeff. He knows me so well, and I really do believe that he's not going anywhere--that he cares for me in a way no one every has.

So, if I'm dreaming-- please let me sleep, because I don't want to wake up.